Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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